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juniors~

2007-01-27T11:46:00.000+08:00

I always hate it when my seniors say that they hate the juniors.
Especially when I was junior, it just seemed so immature and everything.
It's just a vicious cycle isn't it?
Every batch after will hate the batch before it,
& every start of the year you'll hear things like "I don't like the sec 1s this year."
Sian. Let's break the chain.
I LOVE THE SEC 1S THIS YEAR, DON'T YOU!? =D
they are all so cute ((:
hearts!

FIONNA ROCKS!

2007-01-23T16:23:00.000+08:00

Omgosh. I love Fionna to death!
After talking to her today, I've decided to fight for what I want! *wink wink*

& ANG MO KIO HUB ROCKS PLS GO AND EAT YOGURT THERE THANK YOU VERY MUCHIES!

no more being depressed!
ying wei WO zhi de yong you!
hahahahahah (:

ai ni ai ni ai si ni, wei shen me ni kan bu chu lai?! bai chi!!!!!

雨季开始了

2007-01-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

空气里远远传来一首歌
望着云穿着新娘的白纱
抬起头不看你
假装我是被风景感动了

我知道你身边有一个人
看着爱隔着一道玻璃门
每天都劝自己
能这样静静看你就够了

心情很乱能怎么办
爱情不是故意的
不想挑战另外一个人
又阻止不了心里狂奔的列车

不知不觉爱上了
可是能跟谁说呢
早晨醒来突然发现雨季开始了
不管值得不值得
学会爱的第一课
原来流到心里的泪苦苦的

这世界没有想象的单纯
我不懂什么时候开始的
也许是爱上你
说她的时候眼里的认真

the above is in chinese.
wo de xin sui le. ):

BLAH

2007-01-22T18:57:00.000+08:00

Because I really thought our friendship is stronger than this.
Guess I'm wrong lah, 'cause you listened to her and believed her so easily.
I'm speechless but whatever.

**

I have no clue what Mr Chai is talking about during maths lor.

**

Stop the video shit! by the way..

**

& I'm too late. You're hers. Tata (:

no more frustrated entries!

2007-01-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

I think I've been pmsing like siao lately.
So that's why my entries are all so frustrated. ):
Hahahahah (:

Heyhey I'm super happy with my life now & I hope things will remain like this forever! =D
Maybe not forever because I'll be happier if ____________________ .
Hehehehehehehhohohohohahahahhawhahahahahhaha WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Okay nevermind. =.=

Hohoho, Yes yiyin shall be happy!
Yeah by the way I can't wait for school tmr!!!

Hm, today jiejie said something that's super true!
Girls in love are all so insecure ):
And she kept grumblng and grumbling in the car on the way to ballet class. Hahahahah.

Ballet was so freaking EXCITING!
The barre and center is all done already, and I quite suck at those so I must PRACTICE! =D
Yes I must practise! =D

Hm, okay okay. I have a crush! =D hahahahah
So un-holy right!
Okay anything lah, it's been a long time since I've been so crazy over somebody!
That person is so xin fu okay! =D
hehehehehe.

I'm happy (:

Kev said that I have a very sad and boring face, so everybody thinks I'm a sian person.
I'm so sad lor. )):
You know you know! Like where got like that one lor. Then people got interesting face means they very interesting meh?! Grah.
Let me show you some examples ah, you see the 34 teacher, you think she very interesting right, actually she very sian one lor, so miss ong lor can.

And I'm in band 2 english. It's damn rubbish okay.
But nevermind, Band 2 got cool people! =D

So now I shall not aact pro anymore, I will blog like how I speak.

I keep dreaming of weird things.
Anyway I'm going to sleep now.

BYE! loves! =D loves to ___________________ most.

naive

2007-01-20T09:28:00.000+08:00

ke neng ni gen ben mei you xi huan guo wo
shi wo tai tai tai tai tian zhen le.
suan le!
(:

hullo.

2007-01-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

IM TIRED.
I NEED TO REST.
I think its so unfair lor, I try so hard to be attentive and everything yet I still can't do maths homework.
I'm so sad.

GREEEEEEEN!

2007-01-18T17:54:00.000+08:00

HI! =D

everybody is so bad tempered nowadays.
you all should just freaking control your temper or die.
im sick of being the nice person.

insomiaaaaaaaaaa!

2007-01-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

I'm so angry I JUST CAN'T SLEEP NO MATTER HOW I CLOSE MY EYES AND SING GLORIOUS 1957039176591 TIMES.
Gosh, it used to work.
See how I'm drifting?
DAMN IT.
I don't like.

hrm. Yeah okay I shall rant more.
I love my new class but I hate all the classes we have to take.
What stupid Amaths? What surds and stuff IT IS SO UGLY, reminds me of moustaches? Irritating.
Nevermind, I am going to study tmr ( if I even have the energy) but I dont know with who.
But I'm meeting Meishan and Yuqing after school.
OKay, whatever.
TOMORROW IS MUG DAY.
muggers are cool. we cool you drool.
Or something like that lah, I saw on TWOONE'S class teee.

I WANT CLASS TEE TOOOOOOO =(

So sad I wanna fall in love until the rainy season is over.
Nevermind, I'll go hug my dog tomorrow.

I sound pathetic and angry.,
I'M SO ANGRY I WANNA SLEEP BUT I JUST CAN'T.
You know how torturing that is?!
Obviously you don't.
& I'm so ugly already with pimples everywhere on my face?!
OMG PUBERTY RUINS FACES AND BODIES.
I feel so fat and bloated and pimply like a watermelon.

AND I CAN'T SLEEP.
I'M GONNA LOOK LIKE A PIG TOMORROW.
OR AN OVERWEIGHT PANDA.
OR SOMETHING.

Friday there's birthday celebration but choir stabbed me in my face so I can only go for an HOUR!
WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY

I'm missing out on so much & I confirm I'm going to fall sick soon, I hope I fall sick on the weekend if not I'll miss classes and I'll probably feel stupid for the rest of the year.
Damn, I know this year's important.

I really don't wanna stop my studying spreee
I hope it lasts till at least june, then I can go work at Daddy's company for a while and slack a while, maybe my maths will miraculously improve.

Physics sucks. I miss my sec 2 life.

I know I haven't been blogging lah. But I really have no time. I haven't even been online for wite a while you know! It's so saddening lor.
I'm sad now.

I want to sleep. I THINK MY CLASS HAS MANY NICE AND FRIENDLY PEOPLE!
YAY!
& although we aren't close we are nice to each other!
I LIKE!

I'm sitting beside ZOEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I keep drawing my name on her, thats cool lor.

Okay I'm gonna go attempt to sleep.
If it doesn't work I probably will blog again.
Byeeeeeee!

2007-01-09T19:36:00.000+08:00

UNAPPRECIATED.
Yet I just can't change
I just can't walk away.
I'm helpless.

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL 2007

2007-01-03T17:25:00.000+08:00

I thought I didn't like you
& after much procrastination did I bother to meet you
At first glance I concluded that we weren't meant to be together
It wasn't until we talked
- I realized the dazzling smiles in you
You impressed me with your humour and warmth!
It was hard to not fall in love with you.
...
..
.
3/3 ' 2007, YOU ROCK!

I LOVE MY NEW CLASS ! XOXO!

Yeah! YOU=3/3
GET IT?
HAHAHA.

one day and a few more hours to hell

2007-01-01T14:57:00.000+08:00

I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL.
I don't wanna pack my bag, don't wanna pack my books.
I wanna continue enjoying my carefreeeeeeeee holidayssssssssss!
Oh man!!

Just now something super comical happened!
A bird tried to fly through my window!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMGOSH & it produced a super loud "AHHH AHHH" sound.
Hahahhahahahahahahahahahahaahhahahahahah
I feel sorry for the bird
- I think it broke its beak ):

Crap.
I don't wanna go to school.
I don't wanna STUDY.
I don't wanna go to school.

I'm in 3/3 next year.
Not very happy, not very sad.
Actually more to the sad side.

When will my computer be done?
I need to update my friendster but I can't do any uploading with my laptop.
:((

I'm suddenly very very traumatised like Meishan.

I'll update again soooon.

OH yeah! And I need to say that I feel like a loser because I'm still using the old blogger.
And my rebonding has become haywire due to the excessive amount of hair spray used yesterday!
CRAP.
I wanna sleep. Bye.

I'm super tired can. I reached home at like 1 plus yesterday?!
okay bye. REALLY.

BYEBYE!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-01-01T01:43:00.000+08:00

Yay! ((:
I hope you guys enjoyed your New Years Eve!
I think I missed out on a lot ): like heart awards etc.
BUT STILL! I'm so glad that Mummy allowed me to stay at Qiulin's house till 12 am!
It's such a miracle! Amen x 321063081650238! =D

Hm, PICTURES TOMORROW!
or when Qiu is done uploading them! :)

I think my handphone bill is going to BURST!
By a lot a lot because I kept sending sms and kept having conferences ! :(
I hope Mummy doesn't scream at me you know..

The family situation is getting better!
& I've decided that I have to be more understanding and control my emotions more,
because people DO grow older and things of course will change!
But one fact remains super clear, the fact that WE ALL LOVE EACH OTHER!
So, I shall always keep that in mind and change my perspective of things.
YES!

Okie, now I'm gonna share my New Year Resolutions!

a) To save more people and fill their lives with LOVE!

b) To make more friends and be friendly to everyone.
Don't dao people on purpose!

c) Eat.

d) Be more street-smart!

e) Finish all my homework on time & be nice to all the teachers so that I'll have a better life in Anderson, most probably better testimonials too. Hahaha.

f) Spread my LOVE!

g) Earn & save money.

h) Study often!

i) Learn to be a better console-er.
Help whoever, whenever prossible!

j) Work hard in choir for the gold with honours for SYF! YES!!!!!!!

WOW YES! I'm so excited for next year,
although I'm not really looking forward to the reopening of school.
Xinping and I both predict that our class will be very quiet! Oh no!!
Nevermind, I don't really like noise anyway.
& it will be CONDUSIVE! Right?

Not right.

OH NO!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!

Okay okay, I'm sorry if I never reply your sms okay?
Because I'm convinced that my bill will look terrifying with a lot of numbers at the total charges column!
I'm very very scared.
SOMEONES SOMEONES PLEASE CALM ME DOWN =(
kidding. hahhahahh.

Hey okay I'm going to sleep now alright!
Goodnight darlings!

Thailand Trip ( finally! )

2006-12-30T23:21:00.000+08:00

Summary of Trip (a lot more than 1200 words)

I still remember on Wednesday, the day before the trip, when I was busy packing everything that was needed to be brought to Thailand late into the night. It was not a chore for me, since I could not sleep anyway due to my easily excited personality. My luggage was so full, I had to sit on it to shut it tight. At two in the morning I finally fell asleep until ten-thirty the next day.

On Thursday, the team was supposed to meet at noon. It was this day that I tasted the airport chicken rice for free, and it was also this day that I realized how disgusting airport food was. It couldn’t be compared to even the chicken rice sold opposite the school. Although Fionna, my dearest bestfriend, was dead sure that the chicken rice was alright, I was still convinced that they should not sell such chicken rice at the airport! It tasted so horrible and stale, like plane food. I believe that Fionna is just overly-excited about the trip therefore she did not realize how bad the chicken rice tasted. Anyway, we had a while of free time when we met up with the rest and strolled around the airport taking pointless pictures. It was quite fun!

On the plane, Fionna and I did not get window seats. She whined about it a little, and then we just enjoyed the rest of the plane trip watching Little Man 2. It was so funny! If you have not watched it, you should. After we got off the plane, we were greeted by Winitsuksa people! They were so friendly and nice! The principal was so humorous and after a few photo-taking, we went to have our dinner. I was seated near Fionna, Ganesh and his partner Kiw, Kenn and his partner Chui. We had fun exchanging languages and no, not English and Thai, we exchanged Korean, Japanese and Chinese! Wow! I was so impressed by Kiw’s ability to speak so many different languages. He was also impressed by me of course. The dinner was the second Thai dinner I had in my entire life and it was quite alright, much better than the airport’s chicken rice.
At night, we checked in at Lopburi Inn Resort. Our room number was eight, and I was quite happy about it as eight is a lucky number! I was so scared that I would see a ghost in the Inn, thus I never fell asleep until five in the morning the next day, for one hour. We had to wake up at six in the morning to prepare before breakfast at seven.

The welcome performance on Friday did not go as well as we planned. However, the students in Winitsuksa did not really mind! I shot to fame thanks to my Mother and Father who blessed me with such cool features that Thai people loved, and the students crowded around me to take my photo! My partner, Benyapa aka Ben, was very excited to see me. I was very excited to see her too. I thought she was older than me but she was actually younger than me. We had a little sweet treats and then we proceeded to their Bilingual classroom to attend some activities. This is the first time in my life that I had felt so much like a star. The moment I stepped into their classrooms there was endless photograph and autograph taking. Wow, I never knew I was so attractive! Okay, I’m just kidding.

My host family’s home was actually quite big! Ben’s parents were very nice to me and helped me carry my superbly heavy and packed luggage up to the fourth floor, something I concluded was impossible. Apparantly, I was wrong. I addressed them as “Kun Por” and “Kun Meh”, which means Dad and Mum respectively. The night went well and I had very sweet dreams of Jay Chou and Joshua Ang, which was so cool!

On Saturday, as my partner is a Secondary One student while the rest of the Winitsuksa partners were Secondary Two, we did not join in the fun with the other Winitsuksa partners and Andersonians who met up as a group for sight-seeing and such. But things turned out fine and my partner and I had a truckload of fun! We went to visit pig farms and I realized that pigs are really very smelly and fat creatures! I never saw a thin and nice-smelling pig at the farm. We also went to a natural waterfall, which is regarded as a public swimming pool in Thailand. It was so cool that I forgot about the heat in Thailand. The immense heat in Thailand is nothing compared to Singapore. At least in Singapore, it rains. But in Thailand, it does not rain. So if you have seen and complained about the heat in Singapore, in Thailand you will drop dead and the heat will just turn your mood upside down because all you want to do is to laze around at home with the air-conditioner switched on at full blast. As I was saying, we were at the waterfall and we had a picnic! The food was very delicious and I ate two drumsticks which I tried to refuse but Kun Meh wanted me to try so much therefore I just ate anyway, and I did not regret eating them. We went horse-riding, and my horse was brown. It was angry and it tried to bite its trainer. I think it might be a Singaporean horse. Oh and at the horse-riding place, some stranger just randomly snapped my photos and he actually thought that I did not realize. My partner said that he is so “baa” which means crazy. I think that he is “baa” too. And then my partner and I just became very hyperactive and we started calling each other “baa”. It was very funny because when we say “baa” we sound so ridiculous. Anyway, that is what happens when you get an adrenaline rush, or is it an endorphin rush? I am taking chemistry next year. At night we were so tired out and after bathing we fell asleep. I had funny dreams again.

On Sunday morning, while the Sun had yet risen high enough to create an atmosphere of high temperature, Ben brought me up to the top of her shop-house. I heard the voice of Thailand that was very different from Singapore, because in Singapore you do not hear people washing clothes or bathing by the river. In Singapore, there is no warm laughter from all the different age groups all at once, no cool and long greeting, but maybe a lot of sounds of cars honking and a few children crying. In Thailand the smell of morning was so different. It was calm and serene yet warm and receiving at the same time, like in the storybook “Sing to the Dawn”. Now you know the author was actually not lying, because the feeling is really superb. Anyway, we went to attend the “Monkeys’ Party” located at one of the temples. People were to put food on a big table and the monkeys would come and eat them. The monkeys were so cute, and they actually tried to eat one of Ben’s sister’s earrings. This was so funny, because why would anyone hang food at their ear for the monkeys to eat? After having fun at the party, we attended a Thai wedding. It was fun and the food was delicious. It was almost the same as Singapore’s wedding dinner except it had singers who continuously sang to entertain the guests. Later, we went shopping at the nearby market, which sold goods at very low prices! However, I only bought a few shirts and we went home to celebrate Kun Por’s birthday! We ate cake and relatives were invited over. It was very fun and I was very touched as Kun Meh said in Thai to her sister that she treats me like her own daughter. I almost cried but I did not as I could not bear to spoil the happy moods and high spirits of everybody.

On Monday we went to Bangkok and headed to Dream World! It was a theme park which was so much cooler than Escape Theme Park of Singapore. It was ten times bigger and everything there was so cute! There, I sat on many rides which included the hanging coaster, which did not work on rollers. The track was on top such that you would not be able to see the track. It was so fun and exciting! Ben and I sat on every ride together! She is really a daring girl. We ate a lot and took many photos with the cute figurines there! This day I also bonded with the other Winitsuksa people, and we became very close! We shared our problems together and we felt like family. We just could not imagine the day we would have to leave each other.

On Tuesday we went to the AIDS center, where we watched a very touching video of a ten year old girl suffering from aids. It made many of us tear, maybe because we are not used to such sad life stories and conditions of other people. The center really created an awareness for the public, and their efforts to preserve body parts and bodies of AIDS victims were recognised by us all. I actually used the toilet there and my partner did not stop me from using it, but Fionna’s partner stopped her saying that it was dangerous. I panicked and I was so scared that I would be infected. I continued panicking for an hour until I finally fell asleep on the bus.

On Wednesday, it was the last day we would be travelling as a group for an outing. However we all refused to let this fact dampen our moods! We played and talked and had fun on the bus snapping pointless photos. The weather was so hot that part of the sunflower field actually did not bother to look at the sun and some parts actually dried up. We captured several pretty photos trying to look like we are having a lot of fun, but under the hot weather, smiling seemed pointless because you just will not be able to look happy. During the dinner at night, we cried because we really did not want to leave each other. Reality really hit us hard and even though crying made us look like weaklings it did not matter. We loved and still love each other so much. I still remember Ben hugging me so tight I could not breathe. That silly girl, she will be coming to Singapore next year!

Thursday was the day for farewell dinner. It was so memorable. The performance went well and everybody was in high spirits until the performances ended. Then everybody just broke down because this was the last time we were going to see each other smile and laugh and this was the last time we were going to have fun together and the next time we were going to see each other some of the Thai students were not going to be there. We were such a lovely family and the bond between us all was unbreakable.

On Friday we travelled to Bangkok and we went sightseeing. I was on the phone most of the time, talking to the Thai students. It actually felt weird without them around, with a weird atmosphere, a weird setting and basically this meant that I missed them a lot.

On Saturday we did a little shopping in the morning and then we went off to the airport. We were finally going to Singapore! At the airport we cried again and I actually saw Chui cry. I always thought Chui would not cry because when I look at him with teary eyes he would pat his chest and tell me, “I’m a man, I don’t cry.” I wanted to rush to him and tell him he should not cry because he is a man but I am obviously the slowest creature on earth that when I just stepped one step towards the glass of the check in counter, he was gone. Argh. Anyway, the flight to Singapore was smooth and I was seated next to Salmah. She was such a baby, she wanted the children’s soft toy. The soft toy was not cute or anything close.

This has been an essay of 2085 words.

That's exactly what I did for my 1200 word essay.
I wrote a lot more words than required! =D
& I handed this in to Mr Lim.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!
Gosh, I think he laughed his intestines out when he read this.
Hahaha.

Merry Christmas!

3 MORE DAYS TO HELL.

2006-12-30T21:29:00.000+08:00

Okay. I've decided that I love all the someones at my tagboard!
So, next time if you are a nice person, tag as SOMEONE.
If you are a mean person, tag as anon.
Hmm, I know all you hypocrites out there are thinking, "What if I'm a mean person acting like a nice person?"
I suggest you don't tag at all since it's so confusing.
Otherwise, start being NICE!

Wow! & I really thank the someones and my dearests who tagged my board to cheer me up!
I was being so stupid, typing everything out in Webdings and thinking that nobody would bother to read whatever I wrote.
BUT I WAS WRONG!
So people do visit this place even though I rarely ever update it.

Hello, I've also decided to delete my previous post.
Because it's so lousy can? hahahah.
I'm SUPERGIRL! =D
I am strong and I won't crumble and I'll continue being nice and warm and friendly like a big big carebear yummy!

I'm going to start to blog more often!

I need New Year Resolutions! Although P says NYRs never work, heck lah!
Pretty friend will JIAYOU!

I really hope the family jazz would get better.
I'm trying very very very hard to not tear but when I look back on how different you were and realize how much you've changed my heart just sinks to the floor and turns another colour.
I love you and I hope & pray with all my heart that this situation would get better,
'Cause no matter what you made me what I am today and I never want to see you crumble.
Just remember that I'll always be here and when you push me away I'll be back,
& I know that it's when you do push me away that you need me the most.
Please let this be temporary, please.

HELLO BLOG I MISSED YOU

2006-12-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

EH IM FED-UP .

I DON'T HAVE TIME TO BLOG AND MY CONNECTION IS SCREWED ANYWAY.
SO STOP VISITING MY BLOG.

THANKS AH.
IT'LL BE BACK SOON WHEN SCHOOL REOPENS I THINK.

BTW,
MERRY CHRISTMAS!
& happy new year.

I love you guys, MUAH!
Big big kiss for you, free one somemore, RARE SIAH.

im a survivor!

2006-12-11T16:02:00.000+08:00

Hello!
My internet is down.

Can't blog.

I successfully survived without a computer.
HOhohoho.

I'm not a quitter
I just have too many commitments & too little time.

I. love. Him.

WATCH THIS MAN

2006-12-04T12:55:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MOUQfE_PbIA

I stand on Averil's side.
I think Steven Lim just forgot everything he did lorXxX.

HELLO IM BORED

2006-12-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

What am I doing at home at this HOUR!?
Gee I hate you all pampered spoilt rich brats who get new phones every 3 months
I WANT A NEW PHONE MANXXXXXXXXXxxxxxxxxx.
Okay, actually I don't think I need a new phone.
Whatever.
I NEED CHURCH MAN!

Tomorrow's VBS and everything's clashing into VBS.... GREAT!
Everybody say a little prayer
Oh yeah CHRISTMAS IS GONNA BE HERE SOOOOON.
I need PRESENTS MAN!
I want Santa !!

I'm a nice kid, Santa, and I think you're really cool and you know it
Give me Rudolf.

I'm super high now & I can't be bothered to blog about Thailand =/
& I haven't done my 1200 word essay and Abel is saying that I should just conveniently forget to go to school on Freaky Friday so that I wouldn't need to hand it in.
Cool suggestion!

I'm so bored.

My internet connection is screwed so I'm using my brother's computer... exciting huh?
I CAN'T USE IT FOR MORE THAN AN HOUR.

I don't have any cool clothes to wear- they're all in the laundry
& I don't have any money to use 'cause I only have Thai Baht.
Damn it, I hate yall rich kids who bothered to save up.
My piggy bank has a whole it leaks money so it's basically empty now NEH NI NEH NI POO POO

I'm going to say DUH 10 TIMES TO IRRITATE ROSANNE
And then I'm gonna do a survey before I start on my 1200 word essay.

I love you bestfriends!

thailand

2006-12-03T21:10:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THAILAND!
The trip was so fun woohoo!
& I have to do a 1200 word essay about the trip (so lame!) because I didn't bother to do my reflections.
Oh well =/
Sorry guys I'll blog some time later.
Meanwhile you all just go to Fionna's blog to read about Thailand lar okay! =D
(Although I'm not sure whether she blogged about it)

Don't say I never tell you..

2006-11-22T00:09:00.000+08:00

I'm leaving for Thailand from today until
3RD FREAKING DECEMBER
yeah okay I've told you already now you can go and dream a little sweet dream of me =D
wah laoXxX i forgot to attend hiphop.
just kill me please.

& I did my hair
my new stylist is superbly nice (:

YAY I FEEL LOVED!
DO YOU FEEL LOVED?
awwww, this world is perfect.
whoever said that the grass is greener on the other side?

HELLO IM FINALLY BLOGGING

2006-11-18T00:43:00.000+08:00

Okay, I think everybody deserted my blog already hahahahah
I haven't been updating right? I SHALL NOW!

Last night I totally couldn't sleep cause of LAUJIACAI'S stupid ghost stories?!
I was so freaked out that I didn't dare to close my eyes, moreover fall asleep on the bed!!
I think I am the most timid-est person on earth!!!!!!!!!!

So after stoning at the ceiling light for 34208563295603651 hours, I finally fell asleep at 5AM.
You know how LATE is 5AM?!
5AM IS LIKE... SO LATE!

Yeah so anyway, I woke up 2 hours later, at 7AM to help Miss Tan at the studio! =D
The girls were having jazz exams TODAY!
It was super fun lar, like helping out and stuff.
I feel so USEFUL!
HAHAHA FILLED WITH MAN ZU GAN! =D YIPEEEEEE.

Oh I realized there are becoming more and more racists?
It's like so disgusting.
We should all love and care for each other regardless of race, language or religion!
Well, at least respect each other right!
What a sad sad world. Tsk! ):

Hm, so after Samantha's exam we went to eat at Pizza Hut! =D
I ate like 5 slices of pizza , 3 pieces of garlic bread and 1 piece of drumlet and chocolate cake.
EE I FEEL SO PIG-ISH, I DONT LIKE!!!
Then MissTan was like "YIYIN CAN FINISH ONE CAN FINISH ONE!"
It was so lovely, our big dance family eating together! =D
Even though Samantha totally sprinkled cheese on my pants, my shirt, my plate, the tablecloth, cutlery, basically everywhere around me!! =.=
Wah! She damn rough! Not like me, I SO SHUNU RIGHT! =D
Yes I am lor.

Okay, then Terri, Ruxuan and I went walking around Causeway for like one hour.
IT WAS SO BORING!
We wanted to watch Grudge2 but it wasn't showing anymore!!! )):
FINALLY WE DECIDED TO JUST GO TO TERRI'S HOUSE AND WATCH VCD!
Terri bought like so many VCDS ,around 80 dollars worth of VCDS!
HAHAHAHA
KEKEKEKEKEKEKX =D

We watched Recycle, and the story is so nice!!
It's about this girl who writes a book about a world where things&thoughts which are abandoned and forgotten go to.
But while rewriting the story, the storylines and characters in the scripts thrown away seem to have interferred with her life.
Then somehow she went into a lift, and ended up in the world she created.
In this world everybody has a part in it, everybody's thoughts&things which are created yet forgotten or thrown away exists!
In there she finds the daughter she aborts, whom led her to her journey back to the real world.
Yet the lead character only fnds out that the person who has helped her and grown weaker in return was her daughter.
She tries to bring her back to the real world but she cannot, and she starts crying and saying she's sorry.
Then all the things and charaters she created comes and haunt her thus she has to go, but yet everything froze.
Her daughter simply tells her "The story she writes ends here."
The whole scene is then turned to the lead character waking up in bed and when she walks out, she finds another of herself, throwing the whole script of the story away.
DO YOU GUYS GET IT?!?!

Hohoho, I guess not! HAHAHAH!

At night I went barbequeing with Desmond and some other people.
IT WAS LIKE SUCH A FAILURE?!
Thank God, Cherie came to accompany me!
Hahahah
But actually it was quite fun, considering the pathetic number of people there?!

Yeah, and I realized that I really can't cook anything.
Omgosh. )):

ROSANNE YOU MUACHI EXPERT I WANNA LEARN MUACHI!

MEMORY!

2006-11-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I dreamt of ____ hohoho
dumb memories.
~~My subconscious mind is trying to tell me that I am still missing hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiim.~~
Shit.
EMO DAY!

PARACHUTE BAND ZONE D BLAH

2006-11-06T16:18:00.000+08:00

PICTURES!
FINALLY =D

I need to thank Grace for lending me her bluetooth =D
THANKS! =D
So here are the pictures in random order, because I'm too lazy to sort them out =.=

ELYSIA & ME =D

BESTFRIENDS! CINDY & ME! =D

HOHOHO WE ARE SO GREAT THAT WE COULD WN THE GREATEST BESTFRIENDS AWARD! =D

FUNNY FACE! It's supposed to look angry.. apparantly we coth can't do angry faces =.=

SAD FACE! =D Hohoho CINDY........ SO CUTEEEEEEEE ! =D

The Rapper. His name is Rupture, or Rapture.. Anyway he is hot!

From PARACHUTE BAND MANNNNNZZZZZZ =D

IF YOU WANNA ROCK! IF YOU WANNA ROLL! IF YOU JUST WANNA LOSE CONTROL!

We want to kiss you. No, we don't wanna kiss you. RUN AWAY!

JJ and the sais. HEY WHY AM I NOT IN THERE?!

JJ is spastic. o.o

Before the concert started.. hohoho.

Bestfriend and Bestfriend! =D HAPPY FACE!

Although Daryl Seah looks traumatised, he secretly enjoys taking pictures with us =D !

Hohoho, Joel is being influenced by us.

My tongue looks triangular... weird.

Joshua aka pink panther aka horrible photographer HOHOHO =D

I think we look alike. HAHAHA BILLA =D

A-A-R-O-N! AARON LEE! =D

Joel tried to suffocate daryl with his butt! I have evidence!

Star Wars 4

Yes Tok, you are so pretty. Ah hem.HOHOHO.

JJ! HAHAHAHA

Daryl Seah camwhoring. lol.

I LOVE HOGC

I LOVE ZONE D!!!

COMBINATION

2006-11-06T12:18:00.000+08:00

I heard quite a lot of people got into C1 ! =D
I'm looking forward to next year's class =D
'Cause people like Zoe&Jiaxin are probably gonna be in there! =D

OH MAN..

you don't hold a significant place anymore.
i really treated you as somebody greater than who you are now,
never thought you'd be such a hypocrite.
oh well, i just hope we wouldn't end up in the same class next year.
girl, you're a dispppointment.

I'VE BEEN BUSYYYYYYYYYY

2006-11-05T12:23:00.000+08:00

HELLO I GOTTA GO FOR DANCE LATER.
ERM ERM ERM
ZONE D SUPER ROCKS!

I LOVE YOU

YOU LOVE ME

WE'RE A HAPPY FAMILY

HOHOHO ME AND JJ LOOK ALIKE HOHOHO

HEHEHEHE

bye!

IT'S SO EARLY...

2006-11-04T06:52:00.000+08:00

Just now I woke up at 5.50am to DA BIAN!
HAHAHAHAHHEHEHEHEHEEHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO
So funny please! =D
My rectum is so choosy, pick time still pick until so weird. HAI!

Sorry, I'm saying stuff that people don't really wanna hear.
Because it's kinda early and my stomach is grumbling and grumbling non-stop for FOOD!
No food=No respiration=No oxygen/energy for brain to work!
Seeeeee! I deserve triple science!
WHEEEEEEE~

YESTERDAY AT HOGC WAS SO FUN MANzZzZz!
We went photo crazy after the Parachute Band Concert!!!
Oh yeah, by the way, I took a photo with the rapper A.K.A MY BOYFRIEND! =D
(I'm kidding... about the boyfriend part.. D=)
BU HE IS REALLY REALLY REALLY VERY CUTE!!!

Oh! There is something very sacred that I would like to share!
there...
is...
a...
gigantic...
..
.
PIMPLE ON MY NOSE! =(

VERY PAIN LOR!!!

I can't upload pictures D= so sad right!
I'm gonna change phone! To the super pretty one.
Hehehehe, don't tell you which one!
And I'm gonna get an antishake camera!

OH NO! I NEED TO WORK!
NO MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maybe I could approach strangers and ask them to donate to me!
"Hello, I'm from the international-save-yiyin-foundation! =D
I'm not asking for 10 dollars or 5 dollars! Just any small amount will do!
Because everybody makes a difference! (since its only one person their helping.. hohoho)"

I'm just...
..
.
KIDDING!

Oh man, why am I so hyper!
DO YOU KNOW! NOBODY ON MY MSN IS ONLINE!
MAYBE 3/4 STRANGERS ONLY...
People, we should really start to wake up early to accompany weird people with choosy rectums like me!!!
HOHOHOHOHHAHAHAHAHHEHEHEHEHEHE.
This is my laugh. Stop trying to laugh like me you copycat!
TSK TSK TSK.

HOGC ROCKS THE FREAKING ENTIRE UNIVERSE!!!

I shall end with a few spastic pictures taken during ZE HALLOWEEEEEEEN season!

WITCH WORxXxX! TEEEHEEEHEEEE! I am the cutest kindest prettiest witch in the entire universe!

I look good in any hair colour!

PINK HAIR WORxXxX! I HAVE COOL HAIR MAN!

The pictures taken today will be uploaded another time OKAY! =D
LOVE YOU ALL HOGC PEOPLE! =D
I shall attempt to fall asleep again!
yipeeee~

Crush ; crushed.

2006-11-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

WE ~~FREAKING~~ BELONG TOGETHER.
Why didya go to that school in the first place?
You ended up being so much stupider, like a freaking himbo.
I really tried to love you again but I really can't.
Yet now my heart's so sour and bitter because you're with her.
There's something very wrong with me!

GOD! I NEED TO GO CHURCH MANXXxXx!

Hiak hiak hiak!
Sorry for my sudden outburst of negative emotion =.=

Okay, I haven't been updating a lot =(
Boohooohooo.
Hmm, MY LIFE IS VERY HAPPY AND FULFILLED NOW.
There are worries that still exist but I've blogged them out already =D

I think I seldom blog about happy things!
So maybe I should blog about happy things now =D
wheeeeeeee~

Hehehe, I noticed a very funny fact!
I cannot make DOU CHI YAN properly.
You know the funny eyeball face when you try to look at your nose?
Hahahahahahahahahahahhahohohohoohhohohehehehehehehheheheh
Only ONE eyeball of mine is FUNCTIONAL! O.O

SO AMUSING!!!! OMG.
HOHOHO.

=D i love HOGC!
=D i love ZONED!
=D i love CINDY ROSANNE ELYSIA JOOYU BELINDA!
=D & a lot a lot more!!

hohoho =D
CHRISTMAS IS GONNA BE HERE!
OH MAN, I CAN'T WAIT!!
Can you? Can you? Hur, can you!
YOU CANNOT TOOO =D

TODAY WOR, LATER WOR, CONNECT GROUP WOR!!!!
& after that there's PARACHUTE BAND CONCERT WOR!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! =D
I think I'm nuts.

Shall take many many pictures later, then post them all up!
YIPEEEEE =D

HELLOOOOOOOOOO

2006-10-31T23:48:00.000+08:00

POSER ALERT.
POSER.
ALERT.
POSER ALERT!!!

Stop trying to be somebody you'll never be?!

I'm so busy...

2006-10-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

MY NOVEMBER SCHEDULE IS SO PACKED..
I FEEL SO SUFFOCATED.
BLEARGH.

CHOIR
DANCE
CHURCH
FRIENDS
THAILAND
PARTIES
NEWZEALAND
CHALETS
BBQ
CLASS GATHERINGS
SHOPPING
BIRTHDAYS
& all the small things-

TODAY!

2006-10-31T18:46:00.000+08:00

Was so paiseh,
I had to use my poor croaky voice to sing like siao infront of everybody.
& the thing is, I SANG OFF TUNE!!!
Damn it lah, my croaky voice is so annoying!!
When will it heal? =(
Boooohooo.

After choir Meishan&I went to apply for JOB !
Meishan's gonna work at Mos Burger soooooon.
I don't know whether I should work or not.
Tsk!

We went towninggggg =D
NEOPRINTS!

Yay! I like this MACHINE! =D

IT'S SO COOL EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO USE IT TO MAKE OTHER EFFECTS OTHER THAN THOSE USED ABOVE =D

heehehehehehehohohohahahahahahaha =D

HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYBODY! =D

LOVES!

NEOPRINTS!

2006-10-30T20:54:00.000+08:00

WOOOHOOOOO!
These are the people I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE =D
a lot a lot a lot!

Replies to tags! =D (taggers all better read ah! i spent a lot of effort one okay! ) =D HEHE

2006-10-30T09:53:00.000+08:00

Cine. : WHY YOUR NAME YOU PUT CINE. Not Cindy meh! Hahahaha! Eunice is the girl lor.. remember I showed you her FRIENDSTER?!?! REMEMBER?!?! Hahahahaha. The very pretty one? Then you say nevermind you also pretty. Hahahahaha! =D OH MAN, SEE YOU SOOOON CINDY! I'm so excited! I think I'm weird. =.= REMEMEBR OUR BIG HOOP EARRINGS DATE! =D

Rosanne : HI ROSIE ROSIE ROSIE =D Hehehehe. Just to irritate you x) Okay hello SANNE =D Yay! See ya later okay! =D Wife, we must spend more quality time together! HAHAHAHAHAHA. I'm talking rubbish. Rosanne I love you even though I got myself a mistress. HEHE. I really love you! & thanks for all the prayers because you really made me feel more loved and cared for. People won't care about how much you know, until they know how much you care! I KNOW YOU CARE FOR ME RIGHT! Hehehe. SEE YA! =D

010 : Wah lao... You come my blog must talk about me mah. You come and talk about Siangyee that kukunugget HEHEHE D= Please don't chop earthworms up anymore! =D ARHHHHH NEXT TIME AFTER I LOVE I GO AND KAJIAO YOU OK! I will kajiao you everyday ! =D I promise!!! =D Heheheeh. I know you can't wait to see me right! Hehehe YAY I FEEL LOVED! =D

Kev : EH. DID ANYBODY SAY ANYTHING? I CAN'T HEAR LEH. D= hahahahhaha! Oh man, why is your skin so thick?! People should saw your skin off and make leather bags with them! Sure will last for a hundred years one. Hahahaha!

Siangyee : You know, I realized whenever I type your name I will mistype and type "singapore" instead! =/ Hahahahahah, so weird! Anyway, YOU ARE TALLER THAN A LOT OF PEOPLE LOR. WHY ARE YOU SO TALL! I'm also jealous already! D= Hahahahahah, HAPPY HOLIDAYS! ENJOY IT OKAY! NEXT YEAR SEC 3 ALREADY, SIAN!
Boohoooooooo! =( Hehehehe, TAKE CARE MY DEAR!

Bryan : OH GOOD! Don't be actor lah. Because you are a smartass. Smartasses become like, erm, scientists or something. Hahahahahaha! Take care okay! Yah, we'll remain in contact. SCULLY SAME CLASS ARH! hahahahaha! =D Okay okay SEE YA AROUND! =D and ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS (:

HELOOOOOOOO hmm, about some stuff and replies to tags =D

2006-10-30T09:37:00.000+08:00

HEHEHEHOHOHOHAHAHAHA =D
this is my laugh!
HAHAHAHA spastic!

Hmmm, I've been rather hyper these days, feel so loved x)
Oh man!

I have nothing to write about...

You know lah, I'm not that kind of people who write about ..

"This morning I wake up, I brush my teeth, wash my face, then later went out, play game, come back and bathe, then go sleep. So exciting hor?"

=.=

Lalallaalalallalalala =D
Okay, My blog is so boring!

But I feel so loved now that nothing really affects me,
SO I HAVE NOTHING TO WRITE ABOUT ):

Okay I shall write happy thoughts then!
I have two BESTFRIENDS!
& we form the greatest Chinese Orchestra ever! =D
We are.....
BEHOLD.....

YANGQIN!
PIPA! (CINDY)
& GUZHENG! (ME!) =D

We are more funky than S.H.E !
Oh man, Guzheng sounds so shunu!
Like those ancient chinese times, when the king will invite these pretty girls to play for him, then they will look super elegant one. Hahahaha.
Then the king will fall for them, then wanna take them as concubine, but they don't want.
HAHAHAHAHAHAH!
I'm talking rubbish.
Somebody is gonna hit my head with a fire entinguisher! x(

Now that I'm so happy nowadays, MY PIMPLES HAVE GONE MISSING!
& almost all my sentences will end with an exclaimation mark! =D
Hehehehehehhohohohahahahahhaha.
I LIKE, MAN!

Oh, did you know that I'm married to Rosanne?
YOU DON'T KNOW RIGHT.
I KNOW YOU ARE SAD, ELYSIA!
MY MISTRESS!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH

I WANNA MEET XINYING OMG.
MY OLD BESTIE =D

Tomorrow I'm gonna meet MEISHAN =D YAY MY BESTIE TOO!
to hunt for jobs! =D
Then next time she might give me a big big ANGBAO! =D

OH MAN. I feel so loved!!!
I feel like giving FREE HUGS! =D
OH MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN

Okay, enough of random spastic thoughts!

Meeting PIPA and my WIFE soooooooooon (:
LALALALALA I WANT TO HUG EVERYONE!

GOOD MORNING! reply to tags and plus a very scary dream!

2006-10-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

Today I shall reply to my tags ! =D

Fion : HELLO I KNOW YOU WANT ME TO TAG YOUR BLOG TOO RIGHT !
OKAY I GO AND TAG =D HEHEHE.

Yishiuan : Wah! Hello girl, I know you love my blog a lot. Hahaha! And you never tell me your link LOR... I LINK WHAT? HOW TO LINK?! Hahahahahah xD Take care okay! How old are you already? PSLE IS IT? JIAYOU! God bless you, hope you score high high OKAY! =D
(Oh yah, your name very hard to spell... =.=)

010 : YILING!!! I MISSSSS YOU AND YOUR EARTHWORMS! My house now no earthworms leh! Why you call Siangyee kukunugget?! So nan ting lor. Hahahah! You and your weird ideas! I'm moving back to springleaf you know! I WANT TO SEE YOU!! Add me in msn leh? yinilicious@hotmail.com .. Or you add already then I never see? Wah piangxxxxx.

Bry : BRYAN BENJAMIN GOH YU XIAN! Hahahaha you SMARTASS, Congrats on getting 11th in the level! I am not jealous anymore so I shall congratulate you! Anyway I really think you can't be actor next time, so please don't aspire on being one. HEHEHE. Genius like you should go and earn many many money, and next time give me BIG BIG ANGBAO! MUAHAHAH okay okay! THANKS AH! =D

Kev : NO LAH! Who wanna talk abot you lor please... Skin so thick! TSK! Hahahahaha! HEY WE GO OUT LEH WITH SHARLEEEN AND VAL OKAY =D Maybe ask CHRIS ALSO! Woohoooooooo =D Fun fun fun! Then we wear same colour and go and scare little children HAHAHAHAHA

Siangyee : HEHEHE. FUN RIGHT! Yay! You think my blog is funnnnnn =D Wheeeeeeeee! What combi did you choose arh tall genius ?! Don't tell me triple science leh. Very annoying one leh, everybody wanna steal my place in the triple science class. Haiyoh! Hahahahah, just kidding =D
See you around in schoool okay! And I'll remember to wish you at 12AM on the dot on your BIRTHDAY =D WHEEEEEEE (:

CHRIS : YOU THIS BUSYBODY ! HAIYOH! HAhahahahaha =D Don't worry they totally have nothing to do with you! Hehehe. CHRISTOPHER ! GO AND STUDY LAR ! Wait you fail your chinese hahahahaha, as usual hahahahaha. TAKE CARE OKAY! Study hard hard =D JIAYOU!

Jiaxin : I AM NOT ANNOYING LOR... WAH LAO.. WHY YOU SO ANNOYING?!?! Hahahahaa, cya on tuesday OKAY! ESCAPEEEEEEEEEE =D I know you're missing me now! Muahahahaha, take care! God bless you, annoying person! =D

Grace : Yeah? Marcus from CheckYourFate? I think cyf gonna die already. Lol. Oh well =( SEE YOU AROUND (: You owe me money $$$ I miraculously remembered =D HEHEHEHEHEHE

All of you are very loved by me okay my dearest friends =D
& remember I'll always be here to listen to you all talk rubbish
So if you ever need someone to scold you, pamper you, cheer you up,
or to share your joy, sadness, anger with,
I'll be here listening! =D

Oh man, the year's coming to an end,
The last day of school is officially over... ( I know I'm a bit slow... 27th was the last day hahah)
Rohit's gonna go back to India =(
I'm going to do reflection and post stuff here sooon...

I feel so loved-
Aww.

LOVED!

2006-10-28T22:50:00.000+08:00

I'LL SAY NICE THINGS
I WON'T WRITE UGLY THINGS
I LOVE ZONE D!

FIRE

2006-10-28T00:53:00.000+08:00

OH MAN // HE'S SO HOT // IM MELTING.
Particles in my body running around damn fast until I probably will become gas and float away.
SUBLIMATION!

Oh dear Yiyin, what's happening to you?

...
..
.

Don't say you love her.
Say you love me.
=D

HEHEHE
I'm talkin nonsense again please ignore me.

DAMN IS HE HOT MAN.

Aiyo die lar.
CANNOT LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!

YIYIN, YOU DON'T LIKE HIM.
HE'S A BIG FAT EGO JERK.
Oh man, no no no, he's not fat what....
RIGHT?

...
..
.

I'm just going to fa hua chi everytime I see him.
Maybe he is just photogenic.
Scully, he is still that ... that... that...NO LEH HE WAS ALWAYS HOT SINCE LIKE FOREVER.

Damn it.

Please ignore me.
I am being weird.

Hello

2006-10-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

Nobody will understand what I'm talking about in my emo anonymous posts.
If anyone does I'll be in deep shit.
So it's good that nobody knows.
But please don't assume I'm talking about you!
BECAUSE 99.99% OF THE TIME YOU'RE WRONG! =D

byeeee.
BUSY!

WHY!

2006-10-27T21:00:00.000+08:00

I really really really tried to believe
But I just couldn't and still cannot.
Lor.

Maybe I should stop.
Wasting. Everybody's. Time.

*****

I FEEL INVISIBLE!
Invisible is just one letter N away from Invincible.
INVISIBLE.
INVISIBLE.
INVISIBLE.

D=

Talking rubbish.
Please ignore me.
HAHAHAH.
bye!

Backstabber

2006-10-27T14:29:00.000+08:00

I was wrong about you.
Thought you were mature, thought you were sensible, thought you were this&that
But you weren't.

I'm pointing my finger at you now
When it was supposed to guide you
You betrayed my trust.

Even though in the end I wasn't the one who got harmed.
But was it fair for her?
Have you ever thought about how much trouble this would bring her?
You misused our trust, tried to bribe the hearts of everyone using underhand methods.

I'll keep this to myself, because I don't want to hurt you.
I don't want to stab you in your back like how you stabbed her in her back.
Because one victim is enough, and one more wouldn't make things any better.

I really believed in you, even though you were young.
I thought you'd understand how serious things were already,
yet you brought it up to another level.
Don't you ever feel ashamed of yourself?
Because I'm ashamed of myself trusting you.

It's so typical, she'd tell you things and you'd tell them things she told you.
In different points of views words WILL get distorted and they WERE distorted.
You were supposed to be the bridge between us all
yet you made her drift further.

I'll be that bridge now, and I'll stop her from telling you.
There are many other ways to get attention other than merging us with more hatred towards a common enemy.
I'll suggest one right here.
How about getting better grades?
You can't? Too bad. Work harder.
Don't bring people down, because doing that doesn't make you stronger.
It makes us ALL WEAKER.

She's lost, she's confused, she doesn't know what's happening.
& She deserves more than this.
Because she IS better than you.

I'm caught in the middle.
Im part of them but also part of the others.
I'll change things with my own hands then.
Since you are completely part of them now,
Don't step on the bridge.
Don't even try to.
Don't talk to me, don't let me know the deeds you've done
Don't tell me how she's bad, she's mean, she's wrong.
You are worse.

Not one more.
Or I'll break you.

HURRY HURRY!

2006-10-27T09:50:00.000+08:00

No time to blog.

Religion makes people better people.
=D

Bye!

Shopping, Role models.. blah

2006-10-24T18:41:00.000+08:00

Hello! =D *sniff sniff*
My runny nose isn't getting any better!!!
Anyway, turns out I went shopping eventually,
and mummy paid everything.
Everything meaning a lot of things,
And paid meaning paid a lot of money.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.
Guess what?
Know the sexy Levis poster hanging around Malls?
I got that pair man.

Something's terribly wrong with mummy, she bought me everything I wanted.
Like normally, when things are more than 60 bucks she'll reconsider.
Now she doesn't even bother to reconsider she just goes "Go and pay lor."
Oh man!

Okay so about role models.
I used to have a few role models, all anonymous people who had a good heart, funny and fashion sense.
People who think before they do anything at all.
They don't say dumb things, and they were the ones who made me more mature.

But now, they are failing me.
(Well, it's not a big deal to them because maybe they don't even know I exist)
Maybe while they remain at their level of fakeness and shit, I've become their mask.
I realized they just wanted to sound good&nice, in reality that's just bullshit.
What they say online aren't really what they feel.
And the thing is, while I've changed into their online persona wholely, they've remained fake and they just seem so much more bimbotic to me.

I'd seriously rather avoid recognising the fact that they aren't what they seem they are, than look at them now and see only ugliness in them.
Because they really meant something to me, in the sense that they've made me a better person.

I'm very disppointed.

Now, nobody's really my role model.
People are weird, they lie over the stupidest reasons
& they try so hard to be perfect, to impress people they don't even know
when in the end, it wouldn't take a genius to figure out it was all a facade.

Oh well, it doesn't really matter.
I'm off to take dinner.
BYE!

Wo you sheng bing le! ( I'm sick again) ...

2006-10-24T12:25:00.000+08:00

Remedy : The familiar teen magazines, bed, mummy-brand-pillow, box of tissue paper, plastic bag of USED tissue paper, my cool specs that have been thrown aside, I have nothing better to do but to wait for myself to get well soon!

Sick again, must be that Meishan pass to me one. D=
Hahahahaha, it's alright! =D

Anyway it really sucks to be sick, the freaking panadol don't even want to work!
& I keep sneezing continuously.
Wtf.

& I feel so horribly ugly, & I'm so pissed off because today is the only day I can spend 83462035620356039752039572039 dollars buying everything I want, because Mummy is free and not PMSing.
BUT. I. AM. SICK.

I miss Rich Orchard a lot !!! D=
Pissed off. Life sucks.
I'm going to bloat myself up with excessive drinking of barley and die.
Argh!

Great, now I'm spouting rubbish.
Somebody save me!!??

Prince charming come out come out whereever you are.....
It really sucks when your tao hua yun ends at a time when you need love&care the most.
CAN SOMEBODY GO AND ADMIRE ME NOW AND REALIZE THAT IM SICK AND REALIZE THAT THIS IS THE TIME WHEN YOU CAN LIKE SHOWER YOUR LOVE AND CARE FOR ME AND MAKE ME FALL VERY VERY DEEP IN LOVE WITH YOU!

Forget it.
I told you I'm sick,
I just can't stop spouting rubbish.
Give me a break man.

NEW TREND SIAXxXxXzZzZzZ

2006-10-22T17:42:00.000+08:00

Today ballet was extremely tiring,
I used up all my energy!
At one point of time, I felt like fainting! o.o
(This is the time when you go "omg are you okay?????")
This is the result of eating only 2 pieces of bread in the morning, and then assume that I'm so super I can chiong through ballet.

WRONG WORZzZzZxXxXxX!!

Anyway, I'm so excited to take Hiphop again, and then all the other dances ( Funk Jazz, Salsa, Ballroom BLAHBLAHBLAH ) !!! =D =D =D
I love dance I love ballet I love all my dance buddies MUAH!
DANCEFLOOR IS OURS (:

Okay, so what's the new trend about?
Calling people in the wee hours of morning to talk cock sing song play mahjong.
Not fun one please!
Now I know why I've been so tired,
Cause I've been too busy entertaining people who suffer from INSOMIA.

Wah lao eh, MY BEAUTY SLEEP KEEPS GETTING INTERRUPTED LOR! D=
Like this very very very early morning, Brandon called me at 3 and the first thing he said was
"YO MAN YOU SLEEPING?"
Erm, well, DUH I AM SLEEPING.
What else could I have been doing? Drawing the Carbon cycle?!

I finally fell asleep at 1 plus and 2 hours later he just had to call me and ask me a stupid question.
WAH PIANG EH!
I can see my cells working until half and then they just stop working because kena shocked by the sudden vibration of my phone.
Poor things. =(

The day before I also received calls, from who I don't remember?
But It's always different people, maybe the same, I ALSO DON'T REMEMBER.

Last night I dreamt that Shawn&Joshua were acting in the Tv serial with me.
THANKS TO JUSAI LAH, HAHAHAH, KEEP ON TALKING ABOUT HER EXCITING DATE WITH XIAO PANG! (:
I remember saying
"Last time wanna take photo with you hard like siao, now so easy, not fun one!"
HAHAHAHAHAH SO FUNNY MAN!!!

But the dream was cut short, thanks to Brandon. =.=

WAH LAO EH.
I'm so irritated.
I don't know by what.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Why being mad at me is stupid..

2006-10-22T17:01:00.000+08:00

a) There is a 99.99% chance that I don't know what you're angry about.

b) I might not even know that you're angry.

c) I wouldn't take it seriously, would think that you're just kidding.

Hello hello, so please stop being mad at me over things that I'll never ever know.
Waste energy only.
Okay, *you know who you are* if you're mad. =D

Loves!

What the..

2006-10-22T01:17:00.000+08:00

Everybody who doesn't study yet get damn high scores should just go and die lor please.
I hate it lah, like everybody is blogging about,

" OH IM SO SMART BECAUSE I NEVER STUDY AND GET DAMN HIGH MARKS OH MY GOD I ALSO DONT KNOW WHY I GET SO HIGH LOR I MEAN I WHOLE DAY JUST GO HOME AND SLEEP ALSO GET SO HIGH, SO WEIRD LOR "

Shut up!!!!!!!!!!
I CAN'T STAND IT OMG.

Yeah, I am jealous. In fact I am so jealous that I can't help but let all my evil thoughts run around in my mind.
Like taking over the world and slaughtering everybody who says that they never study but still get damn high marks.
Pinky twitching! Evil lurking around! Dr Evil!

Damn it lah, what are you trying to say? That people who study are very stupid or what.
I feel so stupid, maybe I AM STUPID, maybe my brain just doesn't have the ability to ace papers. Oh man, I'm emo.
I'm going to paint myself white and get a MiniMe o.o

I seriously don't think I deserve such marks. Especially when I'm convinced that I studied like siao.
I guess studying like siao just doesn't matter.
Oh well, I SHALL NOT STUDY AT ALL AND WHEN IM LUCKY AND HAPPEN TO ACE A FEW PAPERS I WILL BOAST ABOUT IT IN MY BLOG! HAH!

"Oh all you people who study, you all are soooooooooooooooooooooo dumb even if your IQ IS LIKE 35086135038160591560129, you still cannot ace papers even when you study until your brain leaks, losers.
MUAHAHAHAHAH."

YEAH RIGHT.

I told you I'm jealous.
Spam me lah, if you're one of them.
YES I AM JEALOUS AND I'M STUPID CAN?!
Shittiest people on earth. Argh.

"OMG HOW YOU STUDY ONE GET SO HIGH?!"

"OH, no lah I never even touch my books. Hmm, I also don't know why get so high leh, how to tell you how I study when I never even?"

whatever!

Have been (& will be) very busy lately..

2006-10-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

Hello hello helloooooooo =D
Yes, I'm still alive and kickin'
Toooooooooooooooo busy nowadays, with school&art&schoir&dance.

Let's start with my results!
I prayed until my fingers almost broke when the papers of all the subjects came flooding in.
Thank god I have strong fingers please.
(Because of the finger exercises okay, krys!)

I swear like I prayed ( now I feel guilty) and I said if I could get colourful results I would pray to god everyday an give offerings and totally believe in Him and give Him lollipops and blahblahblah..
Which was quite stupid because I think if God really exists he would've been so angry he'd kick my ass goodbye.
Haha, I was threatening Him lor.

Anyway, my results were like average, B4s and B3s
The only A2 I scored was in Literature, which I'm not going to take next year. Hahaha.
And some useless subjects that I love, like Art and D&T, both A1s.
Stylo Milo right!

I think I won't get the combination I want, which is triple science and double humans.
Or triple science and single humans.
WHICH SUCKS BECAUSE THERE GOES MY PLASTIC SURGEON DREAM.
Always thought I could make it, regretting all the times I couldn't be bothered to study.. SIGH.
Aiya, heck lah. My percentage average is 66.2% and Im 12th in class.
Good lor. This is called Pro.

I'm lookin' forward to studying with the PROS ! =D

Saturday, which passed quite a few minutes ago, was damn freakin' fun.

In the wee hours of the morning I could remember Lucas calling me to ask whether I was going town, and then Ian was playing game and then Paul was on the phone too.
Er, and then somebody called me darling, I dont remember who.
Anyway, that dumb call made me stay up for half an hour before I could fall asleep again!!!
ARGH!

So then after that I slept till 11 plus and I went to meet Chun at 330pm.
The thing is, MY WATCH SPOILT SO I WAS LATE.
As stupid as the excuse sounds, it's true.
I really thought my watch was working, but it wasn't.
And I really thought I'd be on time, but I didn't.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAH, so funny man!
Anyway, I reached at 345 and I met my dearest ELYSAI =D
And Belinda too, who is very very very pretty still =D
And Cindy aka Cinsai who is super duper nice and has the EUNICE FACE OMG I LIKE! =D
And Roxanne aka Rosai who is very very very shunu yet not shunu I LIKE TOO! =D
And Jusai whom name I forgot and is excited like all the time =D HAHAHA I LIKE!

Okay so Chun called and asked whether I could wait for him to pick me up and I WAS LIKE
"AIYA NEVERMIND LAH ELYSIA WITH ME I THINK I GO WITH THEM LOR"
and he was like
"HUH REALLY YOU WITH ELYSIA OMG"
and i was like
"YAH BYE"
hahahahahahahahha PENG YOU MAN TIAN XIA =D

He pang seh me lor please =.=

Anyway, when we reached HeartOfGod church it was so cooooooool (:
Everybody should go to that church please I seriously think it's the most funky church in Singapore can?!
We sang like crazeeeeeeeeeeeee and the Pastor was so FUNNY !!!
Laughed my pancreas out I think!

Like at first it was quite awkward because I didn't know what to do and everybody just suddenly jump and clap and whisper and point and suddenly become very emotional. o.o
Then I just joined in lor. =D
HEHE. Very fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuun!
(Yes yes, the lights are very cool hahaha okay okay Weishan! )

Met a lot of people people people
Everybody there is like so nice ! (:
Oh yeah and I saw a few familiar faces, erm Chenghowe and Yangqin.
That place is floooded with Cat High people!!!

Okay, I think Paul is totally angry with me.
Wtf?!
Sigh. Whatever.
I think my tao hua yun end already hahahah!

Yeah, anyway, so we ate dinner at some noodle place and then we hung around for a while then we went homeee =D
hahahahah quite a lame ending right.

AHHHHH I LIKE I LIKE I LIKE HAHAHHAHAH

I'll be super busy during the hols, at least until after Winitsuksa Trip.
So I won't blog much, maybe I won't even blog hahahahah!
December's the chalet week, with tons of chalets to go to. I don't even know which one to go.
And I'll be moving during december, which will be very very very irritating.
But I'm looking forward- a lot.
HAHAHAHA

LOVES!

Your ugly grandpa messaged me.

2006-10-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

& I replied.

I AM CONFUSED AGAIN

2006-10-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO?
Everybody's being so damn weird nowadays.

Erm, I shall just continue being confused until the whole thing blows over.
Yay! =D

I DONT KNOW.

I'm rebonding my hair sooooooooooooooon (:
YAY YAY YAY FINALLY YAY YAY YAY!

Ah, awkward awkward awkward.
Who's the shy one lor.
Contradicting .. thing.
Argh.

pictures!

2006-10-17T19:01:00.000+08:00

hehehohohahaha =D
My glasses are done! =D

OKAY THE ACT CUTE POSE FIRST!

then the SHUNU POSE!

=D HAHAHAAHH NICE RIGHT!

okay okay gotta go watch GOONG =D

byebyebyebeybeybye!

RANDOM!

2006-10-17T18:14:00.000+08:00

Met another Jingwei-ish person that I super like a lot a lot a lot =D
=D lalalalal..

I AM SHORTSIGHTED

2006-10-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOO? I AM SHORTSIGHTED!
Seems like very little people knew.
=D

OH WELL.
HELLO NEW SPECTACLES
eh, not cheap one okay!

PICTURES TOMORROW ! =D

YooOOoHoOoOO

2006-10-16T09:59:00.000+08:00

Today YO MAMA AIN'T GOING OUT.
Well, I've been going out since Wednesday
& I'm broke and blind now.
I might be going to central to collect my new glasses though =D

I'm sooo tired.
I have a lot of things I need to do, like clear my god damn wardrobe because it's going to erupt soon. D=
But I'm tired.
Soooooo, FORGET IT! =D

I shall just watch My Super Sweet Sixteen on MTV and rot to death.
Oh maybe I'll read Angela's Ashes, it's a good book. ((:

This blog is going to be public sooon (:
& I've kept it a secret for so long because there were sensitive things I didn't really want people related to know.
But yeah, I guess it's not that public, since I'm not planning to tell everybody.
Hahaha!

2006-10-15T22:00:00.000+08:00

We share the same blood.
But we bleed differently.

We'd bleed for donation.
You'd bleed for fame.

I give you that bit of a thing called respect, because I have to.
But deep inside, I think you don't deserve it- & I know I'm right.
Because all we've given you are chances, chances and more chances.
What we have received in return was animosity,
like we're not worth what you're getting from us,
like we don't bleed the same blood.

We made you, yet you want to destroy us.
What would you have become without us?
What if we did things our own way, what if we left you out?
Do you think you'd still be on that platform now?
No, because you aren't capable enough.

You think you've got the whole world.
In reality you've lost every single soul you know.
And you don't know it, because you think everybody else is retarded.
Truth is, souls cannot be seen with your mind, they are felt with your heart.
And you don't have a heart.

People are stabbing you in your back and it doesn't take a genius to figure that out.
If after all you did, splitting wealth apart to your benefit, forcing people to do what they do not want to, you think you don't deserve all of the wounds,
You're wrong.

What goes around comes around.
Wait&See.

Kenneth's BIRTHDAY!

2006-10-15T11:00:00.000+08:00

HELLO YELLOW MOLE =D
kenneth teng jin hao that gay purple monkey shortie tree trunk noisy loh soh ah ma
IS TURNING FOURTEEN FINALLY =D
eh hem, in 2 days

WOOHOOOOOOOO YAY YAY YAY
hahahahah =D
damn it, i couldn't find a pic of us both ):
BUT IT'S ALRIGHT, WE STILL HAVE YEARS TO TAKE POINTLESS PICTURES =D

why am i blogging about it now
why am i blogging about it now
why am i blogging about it now
becauseeeeeeeeeeeee, you seee we celebrated YESTERDAY =D

Watched ROB-B-HOOD in the morning
Yes, I KNOW ! The baby is so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuute (:
I cried like shit and I kept crying&crying
Especially during the part when Octopus' apologised to his wife & said that he wasn't worthy of being her hubbyyyy ))):
THAT BITCH WITH IMAGINARY 8 LEGS. ARGH.
People(like me like me hahah) just don't know how to cherish what you've got till it's gone
noooooooooo! =(

Then after watching ROBBHOOD we went to eat @ ESTALER OR ESTELLER OR IDONTREMEMBER
Some Indonesian restaurant and I had a really bad bad bad tummyache
So I didn't eat much hahahah

Then after that we went to KBOX to sing sing sing sing sing
YAY =D
I ate like 2 slices of Kenneth's birthday cake because it was sooooooooooooooooooooooo freakin' DELICIOUS!
OHMYGOD.
I swear I could gobble the whole thing up if nobody else wanted any muahahahha

We sang till our lungs exploded! o.o
and then we went to eat at WHAT'STHATPLACE?
erm erm erm, OH AT PEPPERLUNCH =D
yummy yummy yummy!
There, I attempted to teach the guys THE RIGHT WAY OF HOLDING CHOPSTICKS =D
Failed miserably again, as usual.
Again I have managed to convince myself that I AM A BAD TEACHER.
WTH. NooOoOOoOoOOoOOoOoOOo. =(

& THEN, I SAW IAN&LUCAS AGAIN.
wah lao eh, I'm never going town again lah give me so much shit knn.
whole day everytime go keep seeing them wah kao ehXxXxXxXx.
LIM PEI BUAY SONG ARH ARH ARH ARH ARH.
PUI!

I got super uncomfy then finally I couldn't take it anymore so I told the guys about the friendster vs real life thing.
AND THEY STOOD UP THEY WERE LIKE
"EH ACS ACS DE. EH WHICH ONE AH"
damn blooody loud WAH LAOxXxXxxX.
(editied: NONONO FIGHT'S OVER I LOVE THEM ! =D)

=.= Luckily Ian&Lucas left already, or else I don't know WHAT embarrassing thing will happen.
Heng ah. Phew.
Spark war, I scared. =(
Anyway the one I'm really mad at is Lucas.
Just can't stand that smirk on his face. Tsk. I want to cry.
NO I DON'T REALLY WANT TO CRY LAH STUPID.

HAHAHAHAH.
OKAY BYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYEBYE =D MUAH!

& thanks to all who really cared about my arm & such
and those who reassured me of how I looked.
I have a feeling the HOLS are gonna be so much better than this (;

What I've been up to this week!

2006-10-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

WEDNESDAY
The last paper was D&T and I was surprisingly extremely intelligent.
I remembered ALL the facts and I think I'll score really well for it.
Anyway, THAT'S NOT THE POINT! =D

Went ice skating with Jiaxin, Andre, Szu Hsein, blahblahblah a lot of people
& we had super a lot of freaking fuuuuuuuun =D
I was again very amazed by my rabbit fur gloves and I was happily chirping about it to Guozhang.
I seriously don't know what in his right mind made him buy the gay blue gloves HAHAHA

Oh at KFC, there was a sick old man who kept staring this way.
I was so freaked out by him but I didn't tell anyone.
Then I got accused of being weird because I was cursing under my breath.
What?

Anyway, Guozhang couldn't skate for nuts and he kept asking me how and I kept explaining.
I think I'm really a BAD BAD BAD teacher. =/
Then we got amazed by the bubbles fallin out from the machines so we went to play but by the time we got there it stopped! ARGH!

Highlight of the day was basically I FELL AND HURT MY LEFT WRIST.
But I'm STRONG, don't worry hahah (:
And thanks to the people who kept catching up with me about the condition of my arm =D
I LOVE YOU ALL A LOT A LOT OKAY =D

Nobody I knew saw me fall so I had to stand up myself,
I swear, it was the worst feeling ever.
Everybody just looked in shock and past you, like you were some freaking dead artefact.
Puts the A in the nnoying!

I managed to skate to the side for support,
despite my bruised bum, wrist and ego.
And I got everybody to help me rub my wrist =(
BIG FAT UGLY BOOBOO

I love you Jiaxin =D !

THURSDAY
In the morning I went to get an xray and there wasn't a fracture or a dislocation.
Just a huge ORH CEH (blueblack).

Watched World Trade Center it was nice like siao!
Especially when it's with my dearest QIULIN =D
We talked and talked since its been dont know how many donkey years since we've met&talked.

THE UNDERPASS AT WHEELOCKPLACE HAS A SUPER CUTE LITTLE BOY ASKING FOR DONATIONS!
he is like, only three years old or something =D
HE IS SO CUTE.
TRUST ME.
& after I donated he showed off his tattoo to me (the tattoo is obviously fake)
and then proceeded to giggle and HUG QIULIN and then HUG ME =D
I gushed about him for like, 30 minutes continuously OMGAH!
I sound like a paedophile hahahahahah (=

And then I saw this shop named the condom house and I was so amused.
HAHAHA!
Qiulin said she saw the inside of it before and it was really reallly dark.
Like in the phylosophical way and the literal way ;)
EW HAHA

My dearest was sick! Boohoooo!
So we went home early and I took 162 to YCK which is a superbly long journey.
Trust me.
LIKEWHEREISMYPRIVATEJETHOHOHOSANTALOVESME!

~~Oh yeah, and I saw Ian&Lucas but it didn't really matter because they are officially the most insignificant people in my life.~~
(edited : NO LAH NO LAH FIGHT'S OVER HEHEH =D i love them! )

FRIDAY
Today was spent with MY BESTEST GIRLFRIEND FIONNA =D!!
Oh man we walked around ICON for like, EVER but there was NOTHING TO BUY!
Bugis street was the next stop, but it was so freaking disappointing too.
So we went to Edge but there was NOTHING AGAIN, like for the third time!

MY GOD.
WHAT HAPPENED TO BUGIS!!??
miserable. tsk.

WE MET A CUTE DONATION GUY =D
he was cute in the Derrick way hahahahhah
so cute so cute lalalalalal (:

We kept talking about everything at everywhere and we bought really cool slippers for $9.90.
IT'S FOR THE THAI TRIP =D
WINITSUKSA, HERE WE COME!

I love my rooomie =D
Aww triple hugs&kisses!

Oh and we did something probably illegal ;)
TAKO POCHI! =D
hehehe MUAH!

Tomorrow's gonna be kenneth's party.
I'm running out of clothes to wear, god save me!

YOU!

2006-10-13T22:32:00.000+08:00

Guess what?
I don't like you.
I don't like our little secret.
& I don't wanna live with it running around my brain and poking at my nerve D=

So there.
I'm gonna leave it behind,
& it'll be forgotten.

Once upon a time, I really thought I fell for you.
Now that's just crap.
& you're making me embarrassed that I ever thought so.

Bye darling.
Continue chasing after chickens that can't fly.

Stupid njstar&haze

2006-10-08T19:10:00.000+08:00

我这个大白痴把得来不易的超级贵贵贵电脑弄得乱七八糟!!!
电脑不久就会爆炸，
怎么办啊 !?
一定是NJSTAR的错!!!!!!
谁叫我的电脑是 ang mor lang，让我逼不得以一定要下载免费的NJSTAR…
我的妈呀~~

Just felt very Chinese for a moment (:
Heyloooo pretty person reading my blog =D
Yes, I’m effectively bi-lingual!
& I’m sooo proud of it.

Anyway, I’ve decided to be a plastic surgeon!
I’m going to study really hard, get an impressive Olevels’ results slip,
Get into a decent JC, continue studying really hard, get into University,
& study really hard again and end up as a perfect plastic surgeon.
Because I believe I reap what I sow and since everything’s up to me to decide,
I shall start planning and start working towards my prestigious GOAL (:
Dang does the word sound ser-weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet babey.

Haze is having fun poking at us like we’re caged animals.
Well, we ARE caged animals, at least I’M ONE.
On the bright side,
I’m locked inside the house with a decent air conditioner that doesn’t bug me. (:
…
Okay so things are very bad. D=

Oh well, life goes on!
Meanwhile I shall enjoy my time fulfilling my stomach’s wishes of digesting starch, proteins and fats!
TATA FOR NOW =D

p.s : don’t download NJSTAR, it has like a weird embedded virus or somethin’ ):

Haze.

2006-10-07T12:00:00.000+08:00

The four letter word is back...
H-A-Z-E :(

Wouldn't it be nice if the world was cadbury?
After eating tons of kinderbuenos, ben&jerrys' and kindersurprises,
I SEEM to be less stressed already!
Goodbye pimples,
HELLO FLAWLESS SKIN ! =D

Unless you have been living in a random green dustbin in Singapore,
you probably would've realized the disgusting hazey weather all around.
People are sneezing, having sorethroats, soreeyes, sore this&that and it SUCKS.
Even my dog can't stop coughing you know!

Made me realize that I have such a good respiratory system though,
despite bronchitis&asthma a year ago, I have successfully been one of the sole survivors who is happilly living my unaffacted-by-haze life!
Cheerios to MUAH babeyy =D

I'm still healthy, not affected YET, geeeeeee I'm scared =/

Can we give free water to Indonesia to put the fire off?
Or send firefighters there!
Poor Indonesian Animal Kingdom :(
Imagine their loss.

Dang!

Family.

2006-10-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

OHANA MEANS FAMILY (:

It's ironic, ain't it? That we were together physically, yet I felt so far away mentally.
I felt like poison, trying to seep into your minds, trying to let you guys know I exist.
My words didn't matter, maybe they never mattered.
All the time I thought I was old enough, mature enough to be part of you guys.
I was wrong, & I'm tired.

Things will always be like that.
I wouldn't mean a thing, because I'm not somebody you can look up to nor am I somebody cute enough for you to play with.
Caught in the middle. (reminds me of a sugababes song, but anyway)
I don't bother to fit in, I never do(bother).
I'd let the little elves do their magic and the pieces would fit magically by themselves.
But things will not ever change anymore.
Because I tried to believe time was the remedy, but things only got worse.

I'm ashamed that I'm scared to face the truth,
& the fact that I'd never be brave enough to do somehting out of the norm to impress you.
I used to think we were equal, we were the same,
if we all had eyes and noses and mouths that see and sniff and talk,
why when we use them they stab people and strip them bare?
& then I realized the difference, because you pointed it out.

Guess what?
I've never felt that anyone who scored high As all the time was how&how clever and smart and intelligent.
(I don't know why I used three words of the same meaning)
& vice-versa.
I've always judged beyond the surface.
But what people see is only the surface on my surface.
Is that fair to me?

Don't feel guilty, because I'm the one walking away from you now.
& while I'll never understand how you'd buy the same clothes everybody else buys except theirs are 2,352,462,637 times cheaper,
you all can continue treating me like I'm just another shadow.

Technology

2006-10-05T00:00:00.000+08:00

Technology.
The only reason you hate it, is because you don't know how to manipulate it.

& a lot of people are like that
They know they can't control it so they get nasty about it.
So yes, the english paper was stupid,
It was so bad that all I could picture in my head when I did it was
A RAMBLING OLD MAN.

oh well! =D

I wanna go shopping! =D
My October schedule is so pretty ! <33

And so the story starts again...

2006-10-04T12:00:00.000+08:00

I really wanted to do another blog since a very long time ago but I didn't want to lose all the posts I had.
But now, AH HECK IT.
This is a new chapter.
Let's forget those pretty (old) times and get some botox baby!